These past two days have really taken a toll on my body and spirit. I am to the point of pure exhaustion. TakeNote's spring show is a week from today and we have been practicing nonstop. No seriously, I was at practice from 8 til 3:30 today and from 2:30-10:30 yesterday. I have so many dance moves and staging positions swimming in my head right now i feel like everything might just drain out of my ears. I long for relief and the feeling of my sanity coming back to my soul. I love spending time with those girls, truly i do, but just looking ahead to all the stuff that needs to get done is simply mind-boggling. I deeply pray that after next saturday I will sit back and think all of this was completely worth it because our show kicked major butt.Sometimes i feel like the apostle Paul. Eagerly trying to spread the gospel in any way that i can, but everytime i feel like God's people are truly making a difference in lives i find something out that completely breaks my spirit and hope for the world. Now, my "world" mind you is Clemson. I feel like Clemson FCA can start a revolution on this campus through the many ways we minister throughout the community. I have recently felt even stronger that this was actually starting to happen. Then, just yesterday i find out things that make me so dumping mad that i want to scream. I openly hear from people that several girls that are involved in FCA and associate themselves with FCA and Godliness have the audacity not the treat people with the love of Christ. It makes me livid to think that people that claim to know God's word and affirm a belief that God's word should be spread everywhere possible do not even smile at people walking down the hall, or laugh when others screw up at something stupid making that person feel dumb, or act fake and talk about others behind their back, or openly brag about their God given talents. For those of you that don't know what the love of Christ is or how to share it with others i suggest you read the book of Romans. I also suggest you read the book Irrestistable Revolution. It will really open your eyes to what true love means. I just feel like our revolution is constantly taking one step forward and two steps back, simply by people acting like these girls that i found out about yesterday. What people don't understand is people watch you. If they know you are associated with FCA they watch how you act, they watch how you treat others and what type of lifestyle you lead. Then, most of the time the view you as a hypocritical christian who just puts on a christ-like show on thursday nights and then says screw you God every other day. We need to realize the impression we are giving others through our actions!! And, that showing God's love is the most important way to witness to non-believers. And really ya'll, it is the easiest way. All you have to do is be nice to people and commit to living a lifestyle for God, because really making Him the center of your world is the most fulfilling thing you can ever do!
"Your love must be real. Hate what is evil and hold on to what is good. Love each other like brothers and sisters. Give each other more honor than you want for yourselves."
Romans 12:9
