Lights will guide you home...

Good-byes are hard. No matter who you are and how strong you think you are. I am a strong person. I am not very emotional on normal days, but some things get to me. I love people. I love my friends more than just about anything. I love deep conversations. There are very few people who actually like them, but my favorite person to contemplate life has left me for two and a half months and is no communicado except letters until August 2nd. I hate modern technology. It has spoiled us rotten with how much we can talk to other people. It went from letters to phones to cell phones to text messaging, not to mention email and chatrooms etc. And when it isn't there all of the sudden it is like something has been taken away, like a right has been suddenly forbidden. I cried for the first time in a REALLY long time on tuesday. How is that for admitting something. I am sort of ashamed. I am actually more ashamed that i am ashamed than anything. Some people take things so lightly. People take so many things for granted, me definately included. But, i do like to think i don't take the people i love for granted. I am truly thankful for all the people who love me, because i am happy to say i have many (at least i think i do). Many are undeserved and i realize that. Good-byes are hard. It is currently killing me. Camp is less than a month away and i can't wait!
I am starting a new Shane Claiborne book called Jesus for President. I am hoping it will enlighten me. Put some things into prospecitive and urge me to make for of a difference in the world while i am not at camp. We'll see.

I love this song by Sister Hazel. It has been on repeat on my ipod for the past week.

"This Kind Of Love"

And this kind of love makes me feel ten feet tall

It makes all my problems fallAnd this kind of trust helps me to hold the line

I'll be there every time

This kind of love it's what I dreamed about

Yeah it fills me up

Baby it leaves no doubt

This kind of love it's why I'm standing here

It's something that we can share

I can't enough of this kind of love

This kind of hope is what I try to find

And now I can't deny I believe

And this kind of faith is so unshakeableIt's unmistakable

It's bigger than me

[Chorus]

Your love can move a mountain

It makes my world go round

It's always there to guide me

I'm so lucky that I found

This kind of love is what I dreamed about

Yeah it fills me up

Well baby it leaves no doubt

This kind of love it's why I'm standing here

It's something that we can share

I can't get enough of this kind of love

This kind of love