The Oddities of Life

I just spent an entire day doing nothing but watching Season 4 of Grey's Anatomy. Literally. Once you get started with an entire season that you have never seen before it really becomes addicting and those little episode summaries they give you are really just a tease. They make you want to know what happens and how everything turns out, because especially with a show like Grey's you never know the outcome until you watch the entire show. A lot of the episodes are sad, they can make you depressed, especially when you are alone like I am today, but then there are others that made me laugh out loud, and even come close to tears (shocker, i know). No matter how much i try to convince myself that Grey's is an insightful show, which i will admit that it makes me feel like i am doing something somewhat intellectual, i mean i do think it beats MTV or other mindless television that i usually spend time watching during the boring days. I should be spending my time while i am not studying reading my bible or reading an actual novel or exercising or something. It has been a few weeks since i have picked up my bible, which is sort of unusual for me. I haven't come to God as much as a should have these past two weeks. I thought that all this time alone in Clemson would be an especially good time for me to draw closer to God without any other distractions. I have discovered some more good praise and worship music. I have recently come to love Shawn McDonald and all of his music. I have listened to some of his stuff, but it has really been speaking to me recently. However, i do have to argue that watching a show like Grey's Anatomy will make you very thankful to be alive and healthy. Watching the show and seeing that none of the doctors on the show are religious at all makes me even more inclined to want to spread the gospel to others. I just look and think of the difference God could make in some of the lives of these people (even though they aren't real, i mean this all in a hypothetical sense of course). But, the show probably wouldn't get as good of reviews if all of them were bible beaters. It is better for TV if they are all agnostic and don't believe in anything or just have "faith", which is my opinion is a load of crap, but then again i don't control the polls.
I dunno, life is hard, but we get through it. This last week has been trying for me in several different ways. This summer has started off weird and unexpected. I still don't know what to make of it. I'm not good with change. I miss people. I don't like not having the normalcy i am so used to, it does something with my psyche. But, as the song says, "Take my hand to the promise land and on you are on what i stand cause i know i cannot do it on my own. You're what i need and i need to be right by your side, cause i cannot hide, Lord i know that i need you." It is as simple as that. The difficulty is remembering and using that.