Been a While

I mean wow it has been a hot minute since i have been on this joker. There are only like 7 more weeks left in the semester. Wow. I mean that is insane. I feel like i have learned nothing. That's horrible but true. At least i don't feel like i have learned anything academically. I am learning new things about life and people.
Changed my major again. Time number 3. Hopefully this one will stick. Sociology. wow. never pictured myself as a "lets learn about groups of people and their behavior" kind of girl, but i mean what the hey, i'll try it.
I mean Courtney Cline and Andrea Bencivengo. I love them. Like wow i love them. They are my best friends. There aren't two people i would rather spend time with than those two.
Since i have written i have read a book called Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell. I loved it. It definitely wasn't an easy read. It was very thought provoking, which was what it was designed to be i think. I learned a lot about truth and faith and that it is ok to question God and not know all the answers. That was comforting. I just started Sex God which is also by Rob Bell. We will see how that goes.
In my small group that i lead we are reading and discussing 1 Peter. I think my girls are enjoying it. I mean i sure am. I love diving into books of the bible and talking about how different verses speak to us in different ways. I am anxious to see what they choose to do next. I know i want them all to read The Shack, but i think maybe we will stay in the Bible for a little while.
India. Man that is in like less than 2 months. I can't believe it. I am so ready. I would leave tomorrow. If it meant i didn't have to study anymore then heck yes i would leave tomorrow. But, i'm not going to run away from studying. No way. I am just really excited and ready to be there.
Pumpkins and Halloween. Man. That is exciting. I love fall. And i LOVE candy corn.

Be the Change

I have had to many things going on in my life since camp. I feel closer to God than ever before and i also feel like i am becoming more and more reliant and more comfortable with letting go of my independence and letting Him work through me in whatever way He wants to. I expect God to do some amazing things this semester. I feel like i have truly changed my perception not only of myself but also of the way i view people and friendships. I know now the importance of being intentional with people and serving others. I feel like i will learn more about serving once i go to India, but right now i am trying to serve my friends. I love the little things in life. Not many people realize that, but i am trying to serve others in little ways. Like making up someone's bed, or unloading the dishwasher even though they aren't my dishes, or writing someone a letter and mailing it to them instead of just writing them an email. I just finished a book called The Shack. It was such a mind provoking book that really helped me to understand God's unconditional love and sacrifice for us all through the life of a human who had an actual encounter with God. We try to live by the rules. It is our nature to be independent. Adam and Eve proved that, so now God lets us live independently and our lives don't always turn out like we would like them and who do we blame for that? God that is who. The book talked about how God loves us so much that we can't even fathom it. He showed us that through Jesus and the sacrifice he made for us. It also talked about the importance of the Trinity and how they all work together as the same. They are never separate. They all know everything, but do different things for us.
I feel like over the past 2 months I have been packed full of spiritual information. It is sometimes hard to comprehend and apply to my life. I feel like i am trying and doing it in the best I can. It will get harder as the year goes on and i become busier with life.

Wanting more and not howing how to get it...

I am amazed by this world we live in more and more everyday. People become more and more harsh, shallow, and superficial than i believe is even possible. Believe me, i am no where near perfect and i will admit at times i can have some of these qualities. However, i do believe that the more i learn from God's word and realizing the way that we are supposed to be living and treating others the harder i try to diminish these qualitities. People in America often do not realize that there are other people in the world. That outside America people are going through horrible times, mostly without any hope of anything getting better. Since Carlye is in Kenya and sending frequent emails about her time over there and the things she sees on a daily basis it all becomes more and more real each day. I now stop and realize that life is not always a beautiful thing for everyone. I feel so called to action. I constantly wish i could be over there with her helping and serving God like her team is. However, this summer i have another purpose. It may not be as drastic a purpose, but it is definately just as important. Whether we are in Africa or Blue Ridge or Clemson or Crossroads our only hope is that we will touch a life. With the reality of knowing that it may be impossible to change society and change a belief of someone. It has to constantly be our hope that we touch someone. anyone, who needs a change in their life. I learned in a health class last semester that knowledge is the easiest thing to change about a person. Values and beliefs are the hardest. It has been my prayer this summer that God will show me His will and not my own. That it will become clear to me His thinking and not the hopes of my own mind. I think these next 4 weeks at camp will surely test that prayer.

Lights will guide you home...

Good-byes are hard. No matter who you are and how strong you think you are. I am a strong person. I am not very emotional on normal days, but some things get to me. I love people. I love my friends more than just about anything. I love deep conversations. There are very few people who actually like them, but my favorite person to contemplate life has left me for two and a half months and is no communicado except letters until August 2nd. I hate modern technology. It has spoiled us rotten with how much we can talk to other people. It went from letters to phones to cell phones to text messaging, not to mention email and chatrooms etc. And when it isn't there all of the sudden it is like something has been taken away, like a right has been suddenly forbidden. I cried for the first time in a REALLY long time on tuesday. How is that for admitting something. I am sort of ashamed. I am actually more ashamed that i am ashamed than anything. Some people take things so lightly. People take so many things for granted, me definately included. But, i do like to think i don't take the people i love for granted. I am truly thankful for all the people who love me, because i am happy to say i have many (at least i think i do). Many are undeserved and i realize that. Good-byes are hard. It is currently killing me. Camp is less than a month away and i can't wait!
I am starting a new Shane Claiborne book called Jesus for President. I am hoping it will enlighten me. Put some things into prospecitive and urge me to make for of a difference in the world while i am not at camp. We'll see.

I love this song by Sister Hazel. It has been on repeat on my ipod for the past week.

"This Kind Of Love"

And this kind of love makes me feel ten feet tall

It makes all my problems fallAnd this kind of trust helps me to hold the line

I'll be there every time

This kind of love it's what I dreamed about

Yeah it fills me up

Baby it leaves no doubt

This kind of love it's why I'm standing here

It's something that we can share

I can't enough of this kind of love

This kind of hope is what I try to find

And now I can't deny I believe

And this kind of faith is so unshakeableIt's unmistakable

It's bigger than me

[Chorus]

Your love can move a mountain

It makes my world go round

It's always there to guide me

I'm so lucky that I found

This kind of love is what I dreamed about

Yeah it fills me up

Well baby it leaves no doubt

This kind of love it's why I'm standing here

It's something that we can share

I can't get enough of this kind of love

This kind of love

The Oddities of Life

I just spent an entire day doing nothing but watching Season 4 of Grey's Anatomy. Literally. Once you get started with an entire season that you have never seen before it really becomes addicting and those little episode summaries they give you are really just a tease. They make you want to know what happens and how everything turns out, because especially with a show like Grey's you never know the outcome until you watch the entire show. A lot of the episodes are sad, they can make you depressed, especially when you are alone like I am today, but then there are others that made me laugh out loud, and even come close to tears (shocker, i know). No matter how much i try to convince myself that Grey's is an insightful show, which i will admit that it makes me feel like i am doing something somewhat intellectual, i mean i do think it beats MTV or other mindless television that i usually spend time watching during the boring days. I should be spending my time while i am not studying reading my bible or reading an actual novel or exercising or something. It has been a few weeks since i have picked up my bible, which is sort of unusual for me. I haven't come to God as much as a should have these past two weeks. I thought that all this time alone in Clemson would be an especially good time for me to draw closer to God without any other distractions. I have discovered some more good praise and worship music. I have recently come to love Shawn McDonald and all of his music. I have listened to some of his stuff, but it has really been speaking to me recently. However, i do have to argue that watching a show like Grey's Anatomy will make you very thankful to be alive and healthy. Watching the show and seeing that none of the doctors on the show are religious at all makes me even more inclined to want to spread the gospel to others. I just look and think of the difference God could make in some of the lives of these people (even though they aren't real, i mean this all in a hypothetical sense of course). But, the show probably wouldn't get as good of reviews if all of them were bible beaters. It is better for TV if they are all agnostic and don't believe in anything or just have "faith", which is my opinion is a load of crap, but then again i don't control the polls.
I dunno, life is hard, but we get through it. This last week has been trying for me in several different ways. This summer has started off weird and unexpected. I still don't know what to make of it. I'm not good with change. I miss people. I don't like not having the normalcy i am so used to, it does something with my psyche. But, as the song says, "Take my hand to the promise land and on you are on what i stand cause i know i cannot do it on my own. You're what i need and i need to be right by your side, cause i cannot hide, Lord i know that i need you." It is as simple as that. The difficulty is remembering and using that.

Life is Just a Test

Life is Just a Test

(verse)
Long way from home
The yellow lines drone on by
Blinded by the headlights from others until i can't see my path
Wishing my water were a strong margarita
Something to take my mind away from this place

(bridge)
Trapped by my thoughts of you and metal firebird
I urge you to pull on the shoulder and run in anticipation
The anticipation of something that is no longer there
Like a fork in the road unsure of which way to take

(chorus)
Life is just a test
Without a correct answer
Imagination is just a foolish game
Walking only takes you farther away
Only to find a dead end
Life is just a test

(verse)
The road is like a drug
Numbing the pain with the adrenaline of speed and uncertainty
Bursting to the surface gasping for air
The fine line between right and wrong
The hunger for the answers only pushes my farther

(chorus)

-Elizabeth Hedrick 11-11-07

Run

Run

(verse)
Disbelief from you words
Encourage me to cry
Knowing I want more, but i am afraid to speak
Down in my luck once again
I've tried to be patient and trust
I've given the pen from my hand
Refusing the urge to write my own life
My wants are no longer mine
But i am afraid love will never come

(Bridge)
Gazing out into the night
Feeling so guilty for questioning you
Yet feeling so lonely and desperate deep down inside
I long to fall back into you

(chorus)
I want to fun until I can't catch my breath
Stand atop a mountain and scream your name
Drive into darkness without a desination
Push away until I fall to my knees
I want to run

(verse)
I look to your word for the answers
Growing and learning so much about your love and falling deeply into you
But i still find myself silently questioning your will
Looking around and wanting not to feel so lonely
Taking a minute to rest and look at what could be
Pushing myself to my limits to forget this and prove i'm strong

(chorus)

-Elizabeth Hedrick 11-10-07

Ready

Ready

(verse)
The pain of waiting
Is a tough test to withstand
Constantly glancing at my watch
Wondering what is taking you so long
The though of you makes it worth the wait

(pre-chorus)
I dream of you at night
I long to clutch your hand
To feel your warmth around me
Your Godliness leave me in awe
I long to hear your voice
To hear you say you love me too

(chorus)
Ready
I'm ready
Love
Is coming
You
You're amazing
Ready

(verse)
What is time?
With you there is none
No rushing to find you
I know you are there
Looking for me too

(chorus)

(chorus 2)
I'm ready
To look into your eyes
Love
To feel that with you
Wait
I will wait until you find me
My heart hidden in Christ
Desire
To call you my man
Ready

-Elizabeth Hedrick
4-26-08

Realize

These past two days have really taken a toll on my body and spirit. I am to the point of pure exhaustion. TakeNote's spring show is a week from today and we have been practicing nonstop. No seriously, I was at practice from 8 til 3:30 today and from 2:30-10:30 yesterday. I have so many dance moves and staging positions swimming in my head right now i feel like everything might just drain out of my ears. I long for relief and the feeling of my sanity coming back to my soul. I love spending time with those girls, truly i do, but just looking ahead to all the stuff that needs to get done is simply mind-boggling. I deeply pray that after next saturday I will sit back and think all of this was completely worth it because our show kicked major butt.
Sometimes i feel like the apostle Paul. Eagerly trying to spread the gospel in any way that i can, but everytime i feel like God's people are truly making a difference in lives i find something out that completely breaks my spirit and hope for the world. Now, my "world" mind you is Clemson. I feel like Clemson FCA can start a revolution on this campus through the many ways we minister throughout the community. I have recently felt even stronger that this was actually starting to happen. Then, just yesterday i find out things that make me so dumping mad that i want to scream. I openly hear from people that several girls that are involved in FCA and associate themselves with FCA and Godliness have the audacity not the treat people with the love of Christ. It makes me livid to think that people that claim to know God's word and affirm a belief that God's word should be spread everywhere possible do not even smile at people walking down the hall, or laugh when others screw up at something stupid making that person feel dumb, or act fake and talk about others behind their back, or openly brag about their God given talents. For those of you that don't know what the love of Christ is or how to share it with others i suggest you read the book of Romans. I also suggest you read the book Irrestistable Revolution. It will really open your eyes to what true love means. I just feel like our revolution is constantly taking one step forward and two steps back, simply by people acting like these girls that i found out about yesterday. What people don't understand is people watch you. If they know you are associated with FCA they watch how you act, they watch how you treat others and what type of lifestyle you lead. Then, most of the time the view you as a hypocritical christian who just puts on a christ-like show on thursday nights and then says screw you God every other day. We need to realize the impression we are giving others through our actions!! And, that showing God's love is the most important way to witness to non-believers. And really ya'll, it is the easiest way. All you have to do is be nice to people and commit to living a lifestyle for God, because really making Him the center of your world is the most fulfilling thing you can ever do!

"Your love must be real. Hate what is evil and hold on to what is good. Love each other like brothers and sisters. Give each other more honor than you want for yourselves."
Romans 12:9

5 Weeks Left...

I only have 5 weeks of school left. I really can't believe it. I feel like this year has lasted forever, but i also feel like it has flown by without me realizing it. I feel like i haven't done enough productive wise, but then again i feel like i have accomplished sooo much. I am just one big contradiction i guess. It seemed like high school passed by so much slower than college is, i don't like getting old. I can't imagine having a "real job" and making a salary. I mean granted i am only going to be a junior, but yet i feel like i should be deciding on the rest of my life. However, i have left that up to God to show me where he wants to place me to do His work. It is difficult however imagining graduating from Clemson and still having no idea where i am called to go. I guess i would move back home-scary thought!- no. i will go to Seminary or move in with a friend who is going to Grad School and bum off of them for a while. I mean that sounds pretty good. Or maybe i will just move to a foreign country, buy a bunch of cows, and be considered rich. I mean that would be pretty fantastic. Anyway, back to matters at hand. Truthfully, i have no insight on anything tonight. I am just bored and procrastinating because i feel that i have done enough work for today. I really wish we had some eggs so i could make brownies. I am really in the mood for brownie batter right now. But, the one egg that is in our fridge was "best if used by march 9th" i just don't feel like throwing it away. Poor little lonely egg. Last Saturday Sara and I went to Happy Tails (the local Blue Ridge pet store-don't hate) cause the sign said that they had ducks, chicks, and bunnies for easter. They were out of chicks and ducks- which was why i was going. It was sad. I think i would have bought a duck. Then my Mom would have killed me, but it would have been cute. I could have named him Daffy. Actually i would have probably named him something more clever like MC Hammer or something. I am all about giving animals famous people names. If i ever get a dog his name is going to be Lynard Skynard. No, really. It will be. I think it if i ever wrote a book it would be similar to Catcher in the Rye. Without all of the cursing of course. That boy just dropped the f bomb and g.d. an awful lot and that really bothered me. I liked it though cause it was just this random book about this random kid doing a bunch of random stuff. It gave me a laugh reading that book. Anyway, i really need to go to the store. I have no groceries in my apt. and the rest of my roommates went without me, without even telling me how that were going. That wasn't very nice, but i like going by myself anyway that way i can take as long as i want. And all the food up in this joint has labels all over it. Apparently that is the new theme within out apt, labeling food. I mean what the dump? really? is that necessary? i don't want your stupid cinnamon graham crackers so you don't need to label them as yours cause i am not gonna jack one. Whatever. It really doesn't bother me, i just wonder why. I think i wonder why on a lot of things. People are really strange. I mean i know we all have our quirks, but some people are really strange. No one specific, just people. I love the song Wagon Wheel. Carlye has gotten me addicted to it. I have been listening to it on repeat for the past like twenty minutes. It is a good background song. I am not sure i really even know what it is about. Maybe one time soon i will take the time to listen to it and actually pay attention to the words. Ok i think i have spent enough time rambling about random mess that those of you who are actually taking the time to read this don't care a lick about.

P.S. i really miss my NYLF buddies Sloane and Allison. I just realized how much i love them today when I talked to Sloane for the first time in a couple months. i love genuine awesome people. If you just read this whole thing then it's pretty guarenteed i love you a lot.

Love From The Center of Who You Are

I love the book of Romans. Especially Roman's 12. I have been a fan of Romans 12:2 for quite some time, but i recently just read the whole chapter and it is absolutely amazing and can help in virtually any situation. The world has forgotten the true meaning of love. I firmly believe that is true. Everyone is so caught up in pleasing themselves they forget to do things for others. There are so many hypocrites everywhere that it is extremely rare to find a genuinely good person that isn't out to be your friend simply to get something for themselves. People forget that it is by God's grace that we are even here at all. It is by God's grace that we are saved from our sins and will live eternally in the best place imagineable (Heaven). Romans 12 says this, "Love from the center of who you are; don't fake it. Run for dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love deeply; practice playing second fiddle." -The Message
We forget that we should always be playing second fiddle to God. He is the master musician in our lives. It is so hard for us not to take complete control of our lives and run with what we think is right and what WE think is pleasing to God. We can only trust and pray to God for His mercy and ask Him to lead us toward what He has planned for our lives. At Newspring this morning Perry was talking about settling. We all do it, we get so comfortable in a routine that we just get into a pattern of what we like and we never change, we never stop to think about if what we are doing is what God really wants for us. I have felt lately that I have gotten into a routine, so I changed my routine and got out of my comfort zone and met some new people. I have been severely punished by my friends for doing this. It has been hard. I have not been loved by some of the people I considered closest to me lately. Romans says this about those people who are evil and judge you for changing your habits, "Don't let evil get the best of you; get the best of evil by doing good...Don't hit back; discover the beauty in everyone. If you've got it in you get along with everybody. Don't insist on getting even; that's not for you to do. "I'll do the judging," says god. "I'll take care of it." -The Message
I know i tend to get so bogged down with worrying if people don't like me or are mad at how i handle situations that it just eats at my soul. We need to remember that God always has our back if we are doing something that is pleasing to Him. We always need to remember that everything we do should be pleasing and for the glory of God. We forget that more times than we remember it i think, myself included.
I think maybe one day I will go to Kenya with Carlye. Do some health promoting over there. It has been on my mind a lot lately. Pray for me about that. Also pray that i become more eager in my schoolwork. I have been very uninterested lately and I need to be more focused on doing well.

Never settle. Always Learn. Keep faith strong. Love above all else. Remember God is so good!

Drowning Pool

Drowning has never been a fear of mine. I took swimming lessons at age 3. I mean i'm no Michael Phelps, but i can make it to shore if i was in a pinch. However, lately i feel like have been drowning, unable to reach the surface and gasp out for a glorious breath of air. My life right now is so overwhelming, in both good and bad ways. I love TakeNote this semseter! All the new girls are great and I think we are really going to shine musically. I like being Business Manager and having that responsibility and being a leader. I feel that is truly my place. I am very unmotivated with my schoolwork. I can't seem to convince myself that I need to study. I think i forgot over Christmas break that i am not in high school anymore. I think that small detail slipped my mind this past month. My classes have seemed so easy and meaningless, let alone boring and mundane. For the record if i hear anything about the Healthy People 2010 program one more time i think i just might lose it. I just find the more i find out about some of this stuff the less i care. I mean really who needs to know that you should have a social support system in order to make your life less stressful (i mean some things are just common sense). So, finding that i don't pay attention in class the tests that come all in the same week seemed to sneak up on me a bit. Not having the time to study sufficiently and not wanting to study did not make for a good combination. I just wish i could miraculously skip to some classes that i actually like and done will all this crap. I know most of this is probably meaningless to those of you that actually might be reading this. However, maybe someone is understanding.
Sometimes i can really be profound. Go really deep with questions and come up with mostly b.s. to make myself sound really theological. I know i have said this more than once, but i know nothing. Right now i am basically floating along wondering where the hell i am supposed to be going. I feel this strange urgency to get away. Go someone and just either write music or just sleep for a really long and relaxful time. I really like to be by myself sometimes. Doing what i want and just basking in the undertones or life that seems like it has just stopped for a little while because there is no one around to tell me otherwise. Maybe i do need to get away. I don't have time to get away. too many emails to reply to and to many powerpoint slides to print and memorize. I just have this urge to lay in a hammock, like the one at Cadie's beachouse in a really cute white sweater and a baggy sweatpants. Do you ever want to just read all day. I used to love to read romantic novels by Nicolaus Sparks and pretend some of those things were actually happending to me (not the tragic stuff that usually came along somewhere within the novel) but the happy gushy love stuff. Sadly, i feel that those days are gone and there is nothing but really life to attend to, too much is happening to fall into the pastimes of sappy love stories. Have i really become cynical and bitter? I really hope not.
This week i am going to try my best to keep my head above water. To swim along with the current and not work so hard. We'll see how that goes.

For those of you looking for something to do, read Matthew 5. It's a good one.

Smaller visions=Bigger outcomes

In small group last night we were having a really great discussion on committment. We talked about the difference in committment and complacency. We determined that committment is being satisfied with where you are at, but yet still wanted to move forward. Complacency is when you don't want to move forward. We, as Christians strive to be fully committed to God and His will, and most of us struggle with becoming complacent. There are times when we feel that God can do no more with us, or that God isn't really telling us to do something, or simply that we don't need to do anymore to grow in our relationship with God. That we are just fine staying right here.
Then, we began to discuss vision and how sometimes in life we fall behind. We commit to reading our bibles everyday and doing our quiet time and for a while we do really well, whether that "while" be a day or a week, but usually with the busy schedules of college students we fall behind. For me personally, once i get behind even for a day it is hard for me to catch back up, especially if you are doing one of those daily bible studies, which if you skip a day requires you to do twice as much reading as normal. Anyway, back to my point, we realized last night that many of us struggle with God's vision for us. We yearn to see His vision and want to follow through with what we feel is His will. But, when we fall behind we were worried that we might have missed the vision He had for us because we didn't have our quiet time and we might have missed that specific verse that was placed where we were supposed to read, to speak to us on that particular day.
Well, i am reading this book call the Irrestisble Revolution. (Hence the title of this blog) by a guy named Shane Claiborne. This dude with dreadlocks is on fire for God. He has done it all, he went to Calcutta and worked with Mother Teresa, he went to Iraq after the war started to minister to the Iraqi people, basically he risks his life all the time to share the word of God. Anywho, I am reading in Hendrix today trying to finish it before i turn 97 and i come across a passage talking about vision. This is what good ole Shane has to say about it:
"It is easy to fall in love with the great things, whether we are
revolutionaries or church growth tacticians. But we must never simply fall in love with our vision or our five-year plan. We must never fall in love with "the revolution" or "the movement." We can easily become so driven by our vision for church growth, community, or social justice that we forget the little things, like caring for those around us...Many congregations are in love with their mission and vision and rip one another apart in committee meetings trying to attain it. And many
social activists I know tear each other up and burn themselves out fighting for a better world while forgetting that the seeds for that world are right next to them."
HELLO!!! exactly what i was looking for. Now, you may have just read that and been like "i am not a revolutionary who is fighting about church growth and social reform", but i bet you have a vision for/of something. Whether it be going to med school is 2 years, getting a job at a big business firm, or going to Kenya to be a missionary- all of these are visions. What we need to know and realize is that we have to commit to God and His vision or us and once we have done that we have to look as the smaller things. Little visions, if you will, that can be life changing if you will let them. Even if it is something as simple as talking to the person that sits next to you in Math or realizing that going out every weekend and getting trashed is not what you need to be doing. We must first look small before we can see the big picture.

Oh and i really hope it wasn't illegal for me to quote stuff out of that book. Sorry, if it is...

God really likes to stress my out...

Life is funny. Really, it is. If you know me you know that i am a organized person. I am a planner. I don't like unexpected things to change my set schedule. However, at this very moment i have no idea what i am doing. I have no idea where God is leading me and i am going to admit that i am not scared at all. For the first time i am not lost, but yet so found. Yeah i know Amazing Grace is coming to your mind, but really that is how i feel.
When i came to Clemson i knew exactly what i wanted to do. I didn't think i was going to be one of those people that was going to change their major 3 times. Well, then Strossner's Bakery happened over the summer and i decided that food science and owning a bakery was NOT what i was going to be doing for the rest of my life. So, i wanted to make an easy major change into something i thought i would like so i wouldn't be here for 7 yrs. So, i changed to health science. I decided that i would emphasize on education and promotion. Basically i was going to copy my mom, but instead of getting a nursing degree and end up teaching and promoting programs i would just get that degree to start off with. I wasn't exactly thrilled about having to go to grad school for public health in order for me to make a descent salary, but i figured that if it was something i really liked then it would be ok. So, i switched majors, signed up for 3 health classes this semester in order to catch up and dove right into planning my life once again. Well, God has a really hilarious sense of humor.
So, my preacher from home has been telling me for the past year that i was going to go into the ministry. No, not if i wanted to or thought i should, that i was going to so i better get myself prepared. I just laughed it off and knew pretty positively that God had not called me into the ministry. Well, it is really easy to ignore God. But, when He wants you to do something it is really easy for him to get your attention and say no no, THIS is what i want you to do. Signs were popping up everywhere that i was supposed to go into the ministry. Doing what i still have no idea. But, i am hoping that i will come to understand that with time. So, i am now going to minor in religion at Clemson. Which isn't going to be easy since i have to take 2 semesters of Anatomy next semester, but i will worry about that later.
God has worked to much in my life over the last year. It is really amazing to look back at the person that i used to be and the person i am now. It is amazing how much God can work into someone's life. I have no idea where i am going to go after i get that health science degree from Clemson. But, for once i am ok with that.
Oh, and i am not a blogger. I just figured i would try this to get some of my pent up thoughts out.